The Seed

I have a best friend that I have had since middle school. Although we may not speak to each other every day the bond is undeniable. For instance, one day I had this overwhelming heavy heart feeling that made me bust into tears. I didn’t know why I was crying but my friend kept coming to mind. Later, I called and she stated that her dad had been rushed to the hospital with a heart attack. I went to be by her side. He was in and out of consciousness and upon waking he would try to remove the port in his neck. So we took shifts to stay and watch him carefully.

Trust

Trust. That one little word has had me reeling for the past few months. Knowing what God wants me to do and doing it without worrying or without any anxiety can be very tiring in and of itself. I’ve worried that I may have heard Him wrong (or maybe that was a little wishful thinking); I’ve worried about the finances that it’s going to take away from our family for me to obedient to Him, and I’ve worried about how others will perceive me. Not to mention, if I’m even capable of doing what He’s asking in the first place. All of these things have been, to be honest, very exhausting!