The Struggle

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.” ~ Isaiah 55:8

Have you ever struggled with knowing what God wants you to do yet feeling so inadequate for the job? That would be me this morning. But, I know that if He’s called me, He will also equip me. Yet, in my mind, I still struggle. Why is that?

I grew up in a Pastor’s home and went to church every time the doors were open. So I think it’s because I know all the right answers. After all, they were instilled in me, but sometimes I don’t always believe them to be true. Can you believe I said that out loud? But it’s true that sometimes although we know what’s right, very rarely do we but those truths to action, which makes us believe them.

I know that God wants me to write this blog, and then as I look at all the other blogs I think, “God, all these others have blogs that are glorifying You are doing it so well, why do You need me to do the same?” I felt Him in my spirit, saying, “I’ve called them, but I’ve also called you. You may never know why I want you to do this blog, and you have to be ok with that and trust Me. You also have to stop comparing what I’ve called you to do to everyone else’s calling.” OUCH! Sometimes we get so wrapped up in the comparison game that we neglect what God’s called us to do, or we let His calling overwhelm us because we are continually comparing the callings. It’s just another way that Satan steals our calling from us. Another way that he gets us to believe that we aren’t capable of doing what God’s called us to do and that our God isn’t big enough to fill every need.

I’ve even noticed myself getting caught up in the perfection of writing this blog. Like before I post something, I feel that my grammar is a mess, and it takes me days before I post the entry because I’m worried that all the mistakes will turn people off. Again, not believing that God will equip me to do His work. Yes, there may be mistakes, but this whole blog thing is a work in progress just as I am.

So I encourage you to do what God’s called you to do. Don’t play the comparison game or the perfection game. Just do it! Take it one step at a time and trust that He will give you what you need when you need it. Do as I’m doing today. Just trust Him with the outcome. For His ways are higher than mine. When I start feeling overwhelmed, I’ll only trust Him. Really if we boil it all down, isn’t that what He’s after anyway? For us to trust Him enough to do what He’s calling us to do?

LORD, today I will trust You. I will stop comparing my calling to those around me. I will trust that You will equip me with whatever skills I need to follow through with Your calling. I will not let Satan steal my calling by allowing me to fall into traps of comparison and perfectionism to get me to believe that You LORD are not high enough to fill every need that I have. I pray that You will be huge in the lives of the readers of this blog today. I also pray that You will fill them with encouragement to do what You’ve called them to do in Your precious and holy name Amen.