Trust

Trust. That one little word has had me reeling for the past few months. Knowing what God wants me to do and doing it without worrying or without any anxiety can be very tiring in and of itself. I’ve worried that I may have heard Him wrong (or maybe that was a little wishful thinking); I’ve worried about the finances that it’s going to take away from our family for me to obedient to Him, and I’ve worried about how others will perceive me. Not to mention, if I’m even capable of doing what He’s asking in the first place. All of these things have been, to be honest, very exhausting! And while I know the answers to these worries, it doesn’t stop my flesh from doing it. But I’m so glad that God continues to speak to me and settle my anxious heart.

The other morning during a session of feeling overwhelmed and on the verge of an anxiety attack, I felt Him encouraging me to trust Him. That one word. T-R-U-S-T. Then I started thinking, “What does that word mean anyway?” So, I looked it up in the Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary. I wasn’t expecting to find what I read.

Sometimes we need to look a word up to refresh ourselves on the true meaning. When I read the meaning of the word, I was so moved and felt God’s presence even stronger. The following is the definition

1a: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something
1b: one in which confidence is placed
2a. dependence on something future or contingent: hope
2b: reliance on future payment for property delivered
3a: a property interest held by one person for the benefit of another.

I felt God encouraging me to remember His character, His ability, His strength, and His truth. He wanted me to know that I can place my confidence in Him because of His attributes and what I’ve already known Him to be in my life.

Then I read definition 2a. It reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Then 2b and 3a became very interesting to me. I can be assured that I am held in trust by the One that died in my place, and in the future, I will stand before God, and Christ will say, “She’s mine. I bought and paid for her with my own blood.”

So, I asked myself this today, “How can you NOT trust Him?”
The Lord can even use the Merriam-Webster Dictionary to get His Word across to this normally untrusting person!